Celebrating 100 Posts with 100 Facts!!!!

It's time for my 100th post special!!!!!!  Yes my special is sharing 100 facts about me!  Just so I'm not a complete stranger :P.  Enjoy!!


100 Facts!
100. I hate pickles!  Had a bad experience with them in 1st grade!
99. My favorite color is yellow!
98. I use to be a Catholic for quite some time.
97. I don't like sports at all!
96. I hate the phrase "no homo".
95. I'm an honest person... if you want me to be.
94. I'm an introvert!
93. I'm Hispanic (both parents born from Mexico but I was born in the U.S).
92. The German language fascinates me!
91. I despise mythology!
90. The picture I have set right now has my bird in it.
89. The bird's name was Gordini and died a year and a half ago *sad face*.
88. I've moved 4 times in the past 3 or 4 years.
87. The Kansas mascot were the Buffaloes.
86. The Illinois mascot were the Trojans.
85. The Nebraska mascot were the Bears.
84. The Kansas mascot (different town) were the Mustangs.
83. The Iowa mascots are the Kings and Queens.
82. I went to a Catholic school up until 6th grade.
81. I have one sister who is 19.
80. Whenever we have a project in school I tend to be over ambitious.
79. Being normal is soooo bland!
78. I love chocolate so much I can bathe in it!
77. It's hard to make me laugh.
76. I love watching Top Chef when I eat... don't know why.
75. My mom was going to name me Daniel.
74. I want to legally change my name.
73. I would love a tattoo of the sun and moon!
72. I don't like small, crowded areas!
71. I am very opinionated (obviously).
70. I want to be a psychologist one day!
69. (teehee) My least favorite class is P.E.
68. My favorite class is history.
67. I have no middle name.
66. I don't sound as serious in real life!
65. I like being silly at times!
64. I use to (still do) play with pencils and pens.
63. I would give them names.
62. At one point I wanted to become an actor
61. I also wanted to become a chef
60. My favorite food has to be enchiladas!
59. I don't like sports so don't ask me about my favorite teams.
58. I love filling out surveys!
57. I like to pretend I'm doing Youtube videos when I'm really talking to myself.
56. Did I mention I love to talk to myself all the time?!
55. I was a huge tattle-tale in kindergarten!
54. I joined basketball in 6th grade.
53. Totally sucked at it.
52. I love track even though I'm not very good at it.
51. I'm quite dangerous when it comes to sports.
50. I'm really not athletic.
49. I puked in church one time... interesting experience.
48. I love listening to Latin music, Classical, and the occasional trashy Pop.
47. I will never listen to Country, Hip-Hop, or Rap!
46. My lucky number is 8!
45. I went to the state spelling bee twice!
44. I love amusement parks!
43. I freaking love wooded areas!
42. I'm a little egotistical at times.
41. I love the smell of coffee.
40. Hate the smell of cigarettes!
39. I lose interest too easily.
38. No one can cut my hair right!
37. I joined soccer in 3rd grade.
36. I did live in Texas for 2 months in the beginning of 3rd grade.
35. I'm over sensitive at times.
34. I use to pretend I was in scary movies and I would act out as all the characters including the monsters.
33. I wear glasses!
32. I enjoy playing video games.
31. My favorite game of all time is Midnight Club 3: Dub Edition Remix
30. My favorite vegetable are bell peppers!
29. My favorite season is spring!
28. I can be a nuisance at times.
27. I use to take piano lessons... then we moved.
26. I like long walks on the beach (just kidding.. so cliche).
25. I do like to dress nicely!
24. I don't watch t.v.. Top Chef is an exception.
23. No one says my last name correctly.
22. No one can spell my first name correctly!
21. My favorite holiday is Thanksgiving.
20. I have 3 messy leopard geckos! 
19. I plan to do a juice feasting soon.
18. I wear my emotions pretty easily so if I don't like you trust me you'll know.
17. I procrastinate too much!
16. I almost fell asleep.
15. That's how old I am!
14. I tend to ignore people who ask me things.
13. I don't socialize that much!
12. I hate yogurt!
11. Sexuality isn't an embarrassing topic for me.
10. I'm an independent thinker.
9. I like to continue to question things around me.
8. My guilty pleasure has to be watching Mean Girls!
7. I laugh at the most inappropriate times... oops.
6. I hate tomato soup!  Blegh!
5. I'm near-sighted.
4. I love cooking... hate washing dishes.
3. When I say "no" I usually change my mind in 3 minutes.
2. I love travelling at night!
1. I think being called abnormal is the best compliment ever!

Mind Games

I can't stand mind games.  I'm thinking of ones who say they're ok when in all reality they are screaming for someone to help them.  Or the ones who pretend to smile and I go along with it like a fool.  OR the ones who pretend to be nice to you when in all actuality they can't stand you.  Eek!  I despise that!  But we have all played these games at least once in our lives so.. yeah.  It frustrates me when I'm talking to a good friend and I can sense that something is bothering them and they say they're "ok."  Alright I'm here to listen if you need to let it out.  If you tell me you don't want to talk about it that's fine, your personal reasons.  But please don't pretend to be happy and frolicking when you're in sorrow.  It makes me believe that you really are content and pleased with life!  If you're in a gloomy mood then there is nothing wrong to express that gloominess!  It bewilders me when you're in sorrow and you want to magically change your mood to content.  Don't get me started on those backstabbing people you are nice to you but behind your back they're as rotten as month old eggs.  Do you get some sort of entertainment out of it?  If you don't like me that's fine with me but do NOT convince me we're friends by acting friendly towards me.  I can go on but that's a whole different post about a whole different topic that will be covered a whole different day.  Stop playing mind games.  It's frustrating for me to know you hide your feelings.  How can I really know what you're feeling if you keep lying?  I have ears (or eyes) and I'll use them effectively.  Enjoy your delightful Monday!

Racist Jokes

Do I enjoy them?  No.  Do I tolerate them?  No.  Are they funny?  No.  Do they annoy me?  Heck yes.  In my school I have a lot of those jerkwads who love to make racist jokes every five minutes.  I'm not even lying, every joke they say is pretty racist.  On Thursday we did a project in science and there was this one kid who kept poking fun at this one girl because she was Iranian.  We were making baking powder/soda/whatever "bombs".  It really wasn't a bomb just that typical experiment in a bag.  They kept saying how she should be good at this and how this isn't new to her and how she does this all the time.  Now they mentioned this throughout the whole hour of class!  Oh my gosh I was going to rip my hair out!  And then a teacher came and one kid said, "isn't this awkward that she's Iranian and making this?"  The teacher said, "isn't that a little racist?"  Of course the child didn't see it that way!  He said a simple "no."  I've been hearing many racist jokes ever since I've moved here.  And people laugh at it like it's the most comical thing in the entire planet.  Of course people's excuses are, "oh I'm just joking!"  How far can we stretch that phrase?  Will we be in 2019 punching each other in the face saying, "oh I'm only joking!"  I am quite horrified to think that these types of jokes, along with rape jokes are classified as "funny".  I lose a sliver of hope in the world every time I hear these "jokes".  There are an immense load of things to laugh at but of course we have to think in the realm of rude and obnoxious.   

March Madness Update!

I'm back blogging again and I have a couple of things to share.  I left for a week and a half to think things through and I've come up with many things for the month of March.  Now before I get into anything else, have I learned anything while I was gone?  Yes!  I came to the conclusion that you really can't trust anyone but the ones who are actually close to you.  And yes I do mean friends.  I believe that the only friends I really need are the ones who actually know me.  It's best to be independent especially when many around you are manipulative and backstabbing.  So I've kept quiet and I feel it's working out pretty good actually.  My first blog update is to change the schedule of my posts.  I'm only going to do 3 a week.  Monday, Wednesday, and Friday.  I decided that on Fridays I'll do Project Toasty.  March won't be filled with many rants about the world but rather what's been on my mind.  I've been wanting to do this and March is the perfect month to do so!  Some will be funny (hopefully), some will get you thinking, and some will be a little bit depressing.  Sounds like a plan!  I want to change the design of my blog to something else; although I do like the design of it right now.  Just needs to be a fresh new start.  I've been reading past posts and I'll be honest with you I really am ashamed by some of the things I put out.  The February theme was a complete bust and I'm not proud of it by any means.  I don't see the point in deleting them I mean I already put it out there.  I want to look back and think, "wow I was like that?"  So.... yeah nothing much to say.  I will still attempt the 100th post special!  I think the next post I will post will be on Saturday.  I will start the new schedule next week!  So I'm going to work on changing the design and you work on something else.  Got it?  Coolness.

I Wonder...

The first step for me is to explore and discover, both the inner and outer.  I need to decompress from the horrendous mental state I'm currently in.  I feel like I need to break free and it's a huge risk to separate myself from others.  I keep wondering if I'm doing the right thing... should I isolate myself from people who support me?  I know I must take the first step in this process and that's to support myself.  I can't keep relying on others to help me through my tribulations.  Although all those thoughts still linger in my mind I must push forward shouldn't I?  I wonder what will be the outcome... successful?  Or will it be an uncompleted thought?  I want to be the person who is climbing Mt. Everest.  Struggling and yet finding the perseverance to keep going.  Then, when I reach the top I want to tell myself, "you did it", while feeling euphoric and accomplished.  I hope to make this experience a permanent one rather than a temporary one.  Temporary sucks.  That's all unicorns and rainbows but... what exactly will I gain?  Knowledge.  See ya later internet.  See ya later phone.  See ya later socializing.  See ya later blog.  I wish to see you in March with a new mind and a new me.

Finding Myself

I was going to do the "women are manipulative" but I don't think I'll be able to put out something that I'm proud of.  If you read my long tweet last night you know that personal issues are arising and I don't want it to interfere with my blog.  It's a journey I'm willing to take and part of it is to start with a clean slate.  I'm going to temporarily leave my blog for now and I'll probably return in the middle of March or the beginning of March.  I apologize if this is short notice but I need a long time to think.  Also these past few posts are ones I'm not so proud of and I don't think I'll continue with it.  I really hope everyone understands where I'm coming from.  I'm not permanently leaving I just need some time to find myself.  I won't use Twitter all that often anymore either.  If you're wondering whether I'm sick or something I'm not.  I'll be fine.  This is farewell to my readers for now and I'll hopefully start in March.  Farewell and good luck to all of you <3!!!

Men Are Evil

I decided to scratch off the news idea only because most of the things I'll talk about will be in this post.

Men are evil because they're rapists, killers, and murderers.  They only want sex and they'll do whatever it takes to get it.  I just think that fathers should never gain custody of a child only because he abused the family!  There is obviously scientific proof that men are indeed much more evil!  I mean come on they're lazy and don't know how to clean anything!  All they like to do is sit and let someone else do all the work for them!  I've always see men getting in arguments and beating each other up just for the heck of it.  Clearly men have no morality and all they like to do is break every ladies heart.
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I hear most of this either in the news or in public.  I always see men being the rapists, yes some men rape but how many of those were false allegations?  False allegations are mostly used to destroy the reputation and the life of the person.  Now I hear a lot of women say that men are sex-crazed.  Not all men are like that yet we have to generalize!  I think the court system should review things carefully rather than the female gaining custody and the father being completely left out.  Now I'll say this again... NOT ALL MEN are lazy!  Geez yet we keep thinking that men are morons who can't clean up after themselves!  Now the last one is for the people on my Facebook who complain that all men are worthless and idiots.  Many girls on my Facebook constantly say how men are just plain evil.  Of course!  Guys my age will be immature but that doesn't give anyone the right to say that ALL men are like that!