I Wonder...

The first step for me is to explore and discover, both the inner and outer.  I need to decompress from the horrendous mental state I'm currently in.  I feel like I need to break free and it's a huge risk to separate myself from others.  I keep wondering if I'm doing the right thing... should I isolate myself from people who support me?  I know I must take the first step in this process and that's to support myself.  I can't keep relying on others to help me through my tribulations.  Although all those thoughts still linger in my mind I must push forward shouldn't I?  I wonder what will be the outcome... successful?  Or will it be an uncompleted thought?  I want to be the person who is climbing Mt. Everest.  Struggling and yet finding the perseverance to keep going.  Then, when I reach the top I want to tell myself, "you did it", while feeling euphoric and accomplished.  I hope to make this experience a permanent one rather than a temporary one.  Temporary sucks.  That's all unicorns and rainbows but... what exactly will I gain?  Knowledge.  See ya later internet.  See ya later phone.  See ya later socializing.  See ya later blog.  I wish to see you in March with a new mind and a new me.

Finding Myself

I was going to do the "women are manipulative" but I don't think I'll be able to put out something that I'm proud of.  If you read my long tweet last night you know that personal issues are arising and I don't want it to interfere with my blog.  It's a journey I'm willing to take and part of it is to start with a clean slate.  I'm going to temporarily leave my blog for now and I'll probably return in the middle of March or the beginning of March.  I apologize if this is short notice but I need a long time to think.  Also these past few posts are ones I'm not so proud of and I don't think I'll continue with it.  I really hope everyone understands where I'm coming from.  I'm not permanently leaving I just need some time to find myself.  I won't use Twitter all that often anymore either.  If you're wondering whether I'm sick or something I'm not.  I'll be fine.  This is farewell to my readers for now and I'll hopefully start in March.  Farewell and good luck to all of you <3!!!

Men Are Evil

I decided to scratch off the news idea only because most of the things I'll talk about will be in this post.

Men are evil because they're rapists, killers, and murderers.  They only want sex and they'll do whatever it takes to get it.  I just think that fathers should never gain custody of a child only because he abused the family!  There is obviously scientific proof that men are indeed much more evil!  I mean come on they're lazy and don't know how to clean anything!  All they like to do is sit and let someone else do all the work for them!  I've always see men getting in arguments and beating each other up just for the heck of it.  Clearly men have no morality and all they like to do is break every ladies heart.
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I hear most of this either in the news or in public.  I always see men being the rapists, yes some men rape but how many of those were false allegations?  False allegations are mostly used to destroy the reputation and the life of the person.  Now I hear a lot of women say that men are sex-crazed.  Not all men are like that yet we have to generalize!  I think the court system should review things carefully rather than the female gaining custody and the father being completely left out.  Now I'll say this again... NOT ALL MEN are lazy!  Geez yet we keep thinking that men are morons who can't clean up after themselves!  Now the last one is for the people on my Facebook who complain that all men are worthless and idiots.  Many girls on my Facebook constantly say how men are just plain evil.  Of course!  Guys my age will be immature but that doesn't give anyone the right to say that ALL men are like that!

Women in the Media: Movies and Shows

Women have always been portrayed as sexy.  Not that there is anything wrong with that but have you noticed how many movies there are that have women in that slow motion doing that hair flip and smiling.  Yeah I've seen that so many times!  And the men just stare drooling, apparently everything is considered sexy no matter what.  I mean how many times have you seen the situation flipped?!  The over sexualizing of women is highly present in a good portion of films.  It's almost like women have become an object rather than a human being.  Has anyone noticed that most of the women in movies and shows are flawless?  Thin and gorgeous.  I can't think of a time where there has been a woman who has flaws.  Come on people we all look different!  I have started to notice how manipulative women are perceived in films.  Its basically telling men that women shouldn't be trusted because they will ruin your lives!  Oh and while we're on the topic of manipulation there are too many shows that misrepresent women!  The Housewives, You're Cut Off, and the Miss America pageants.  The Housewives are backstabbing, money hungry, and insensitive... are people really like that?  Uhh no!  You're Cut Off makes it seem like women are gold diggers and want money and nothing else.  Again, it makes them seem backstabbing, gossipers, liars, and dumb.  It isn't entertainment, nor is it making anyone look good.  Here's an idea!  Why not cancel those inane shows?!  The words I think of when it comes to women in the media are: thin, tan, "beautiful", manipulative, rich, and pampered.  Women in REAL life aren't all manipulative, not all are rich, and not all are pampered!  Geez stop perpetuating these beliefs!  Enough!  See you on Wednesday for men in the news!

Men in the Media: Movies and Shows

There was one show that talked about a story where a man got his penis chopped off because he wanted a divorce from his wife.  Were they sympathetic?  Nope one lady cracked a bunch of jokes on it and thought it was the most hilarious thing ever!  And yet if a woman was injured like that no one would be laughing at all.  It seems as though pain is only funny when it's directed towards a man.  So what's a man worth?  In shows and movies men are always hit in the private area and that's exposed for laughs?  I have only seen a couple movies where a woman was hit in the chest, of course it was by another woman.  In shows men are always the buffoons, the ones being abusive, or the ones who are douches.  Oh and don't get me started on those pathetic shows that have men being sex-crazed.  It only enhances beliefs that men only want one thing in life (sex).  Now, on to movies!  Have you ever seen a man cry in a movie?  If you answered no I wouldn't be surprised!  Men are NEVER emotional in movies.  Oh no they take their emotions out on everyone else, that's what's being presented.  There are a hoard of movies that make men seem the ones who are macho and tough.  Always the ones saving the princess, always the one saving the helpless one, and always being the main provider for the family.  I can't stand the medieval theme where men must be the knight in shining armor!  I'm sick of these movies and shows that either portray men as the tough knights or the evil demons.  Let's break these hideous stereotypes!  Why is it always a man that has to ONLY do the dirty work?  Someone please tell me the answer to that.  See you on Monday!!

Women in the Media: Commercials

I see a lot of beauty commercials.  Either it's make-up, perfume, face wash, or those eye lash thingies.  It makes it seem like women must need the top products to look fabulous!  Fabulous for what?!  Oh and don't get me started on those ridiculous hair products.  This is my translation, "your hair sucks, but not after using this!"  The message is ALWAYS intended for women.  You must need the best make-up, best face wash, and don't forget you need that shiny look to your hair!  Seems like they believe in the plastic doll face.  Let's move on to the weight commercials... oh my.  Let me start off by saying that women AND men care about weight.  Of course not all men or women do but these commercials make it seem that ONLY women care about weight.  Those ridiculous weight watchers, nutri-system, and all that pathetic low calorie, low carb, and low fat crap.  Don't even get me started on that, "I lost 378 lbs with ____!"  That leads me to my next point.  Why are women always portrayed as sexy in almost all the bra commercials or chocolate commercials?  I always see tall and thin, not everyone is like that if you haven't already figured that out.  It's always sexy, sexy, and more sexy. But what is sexy?  Supposedly the models they showcase is "sexy."  They have to go through the trouble to find a super thin model that's beautiful OH and let's throw in long hair too! Now I understand they must showcase the bra but it's extremely over dramatic.  I often feel bad for the model because she seems underweight and unhappy.  If only they portrayed the average woman.  Not the underweight super model that looks unhappy.  See you on Saturday for the next post!!!!

Men in the Media: Commercials

Now I'll move on to men in the media and how they're portrayed.  There are countless things to discuss so I'll make this a series.  Men have been misrepresented all over the media: news, books, movies, shows, and commercials.  Let's start with the commercials, how do you see men?  Over 70% of the time men are the dimbos, the slobs, or the drunks.  I always see men being the air heads who do moronic things!  And the women?  They just stare like they're children or something.  The cleaning commercials offend me the most.  They portray men being the slobs who are lazy and can't do anything but make a big mess.  Now there is the stereotype that men don't care about their weight.  What I find confusing are the low-fat commercials.  Not one man has appeared on these types of commercials.  What, just because I'm a male does that mean I don't care about my weight?  Oh but wait!  The protein commercials are mainly for men, like all men care about is muscle!  Ugh such a typical stereotype.  Now there is another type of commercial I feel is strange.  Those commercials that have the message of, "don't drink and drive" are always men.  Apparently men are always drunks!  This has been all throughout history.  Even when prohibition on alcohol way back in the 20's.  There was one specifically saying something about saving her husband and children.  Why is it always men?  From what I've seen men are the ones who can't clean up for themselves, they are pigs who don't care about their health, and not to mention they're drunks.  I guess the conclusion is that men are the ones with horns.  Such misrepresentation that only induces male stereotypes.  Stay tuned for women in the media!

Femininity: Experience of Others

I'm not a woman so I don't have experience with this but I did research other blogs and experiences.  I listed the most common I found and I'll just tie it all in.  Remember I'm not speaking for them, this is purely based on what I read.  I watched videos, read articles, and blogs and they mentioned a lot about beauty.  Most of them mentioned they spent a lot of money on make-up products and hair products to look decent for a man.  Either it's the pressure of dressing for men or it's the pressure to dress nice simply because they're a lady and women should dress lady-like.  There was one part that interested me, one lady said their school thought women should be less intelligent than men.  Weight is a big concern that I read, the magazines and movies added more pressure to have a thin physique.  Now I did ask some friends and one said because she was a girl she should act like one.  So... does that mean being taught what to wear, what to say, and how to look?  I had a friend in 8th grade and she tried out for football but they told her, "no, you're a girl".  Let's be honest that isn't a decent reason.  But I have one question still lingering.  If women are told to dress to impress and to look fabulous then why are they labeled as sluts only because of their fashion statement?  There is no in-between for women!  Alright that concludes this post!!  Next I'll move on to the media.

Masculinity: My Personal Experience

I've had many experiences with masculinity.  Almost everyone in my life has tried to construct me as the modern man.  I cannot tell you how many people told me not to shave my armpits because I was a guy.  Yes it sounds silly but I'm blown away.  My mom, sister, and most of my friends have told me that.  See a pattern?  Yes, all of them are women.  Not all my friends are women but most of them are and they all said the same exact thing, "you're a guy, guys don't shave their armpits."  It's getting to the point where I'm starting to get angry.  At first I was like, "eh no big deal."  Then I just heard it over and over again.  I'll tell you something about myself, I hate cars and I hate sports.  Of course my sister always tells me, "you're a guy you're supposed to like sports and you're supposed to know everything about cars."  Ugh.  Just because I'm a guy does not mean I like any of those things!  I've been told that I need to be more dominant and that I need to fight like a man.  I've been told that crying is only for pussies, only because I'm a guy.  My dad told me that I should stand up for myself and that I should use violence when necessary.  Friends have told me that I should start hanging out with guys more often.  Oh but I'm "feminine" when I listen to female singers and I don't let others touch me. Seriously?!  I'm raging with anger towards people, I don't care who you are but if you tell me that I need to be something I'm not then screw you!  Boys have been taught at a young age that they should follow the rules set up by society's standards.  When I cry it doesn't mean that I'm a prick, when I refuse to watch football it doesn't mean I'm a girl, when I shave my armpits it doesn't mean I'm gay.  Interesting, isn't it?  Sorry this was so long but I need to explain everything.  See you Sunday!!

February Updates!!!

The title isn't so exciting I apologize :P.  I just want to explain that the whole month of February will be about masculinity and femininity.  I want to talk about my experiences and also I want a woman's p.o.v.  I can't really speak for women so hopefully I'll find a way to explain it more.  The only day I'll have a different post is Valentine's Day because I really want to talk about it!  Everything will be running at the normal schedule until further notice.  I've been looking forward to starting this!  This will  undoubtedly be the biggest series I will have done up to this point.  Also my 100th post seems to have landed on February!  I have something planned and I hope all my readers will enjoy it!  I'll give you a hint: (it's to know me better).  The point of the series is to educate others about my experience and to type what others are really thinking.  It would be tremendous help if people commented about their experience with sexist comments.  I hope I didn't bore you with this post!  See you on Friday!