Friday, February 3, 2012
Masculinity: My Personal Experience
I've had many experiences with masculinity. Almost everyone in my life has tried to construct me as the modern man. I cannot tell you how many people told me not to shave my armpits because I was a guy. Yes it sounds silly but I'm blown away. My mom, sister, and most of my friends have told me that. See a pattern? Yes, all of them are women. Not all my friends are women but most of them are and they all said the same exact thing, "you're a guy, guys don't shave their armpits." It's getting to the point where I'm starting to get angry. At first I was like, "eh no big deal." Then I just heard it over and over again. I'll tell you something about myself, I hate cars and I hate sports. Of course my sister always tells me, "you're a guy you're supposed to like sports and you're supposed to know everything about cars." Ugh. Just because I'm a guy does not mean I like any of those things! I've been told that I need to be more dominant and that I need to fight like a man. I've been told that crying is only for pussies, only because I'm a guy. My dad told me that I should stand up for myself and that I should use violence when necessary. Friends have told me that I should start hanging out with guys more often. Oh but I'm "feminine" when I listen to female singers and I don't let others touch me. Seriously?! I'm raging with anger towards people, I don't care who you are but if you tell me that I need to be something I'm not then screw you! Boys have been taught at a young age that they should follow the rules set up by society's standards. When I cry it doesn't mean that I'm a prick, when I refuse to watch football it doesn't mean I'm a girl, when I shave my armpits it doesn't mean I'm gay. Interesting, isn't it? Sorry this was so long but I need to explain everything. See you Sunday!!